22 June 2010 @ 19:37
i wanted this blog to die off.
i guess i cant, maybe its the only way 把我的心给说出来。
so i hope you'll read this.
well i guess you were talking about me on your blog today.
i hope it is, at least i get to know that you still care.
and so happened that i read it today, and i was thinking about you just before this, so i think its His will for me to see this. and now i hope that He will somehow bring you to my blog.
can we ever get back to how we used to be?
well i dont know.
i certainly dont.
this is the second time im trying to solve our problem through blogs.
i guess the first time didnt work out as how it should be.
and since then, we were never close.
i dont know how to solve our problem.
well since you are so smart i guess you should think of one solution, if u still care.
or maybe there's no point for you, Am is enough for you.
maybe we are not suitable to be best friends?
you have everyone now, and i lost all of them, most, and y ou know why?
i dont even feel like going close to you during dance.
i dont even feel like going for swimming cuz you will be there!
you understand me?
im trying to avoid u!
i feel uncomfortable when you are around bcuz you are not you anymore!
where did my best friend go to ? where is that ignocent little girl?
where is the friend who cared so much about me?
i straint my leg, you didnt care at all?!
i only see a stranger who .... i dont wanna talk about it.
maybe its just you who changes with your surroundings.
or maybe its me.
you are so good and im not worthy enough for you.
i want to leave it to God.