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7 February 2009 @ 22:47
i hate my life,
i hate everything,
nothing really matters anymore,
you(my past best friends) can still live life nomally without me.
im sure,
i noe you.
now i'll explain wat happened on my side to you clearly,
i didnt walk away.
all i did was just stopping there,
and think if you will stop,
and realised tat im gone,
and walk back to look for me.
but u didnt.
wat does tat mean?
you have three smart brains working together to solve the problem on tat day,
i mean,
even with my small little tiny brain,
i can work it out too!
you just have to walk back.
you should noe wat i want, shouldnt you?
but u didnt.
i didnt mean anything to you.
im just nothing,
so small and meaningless tat u didnt even realise tat im gone within a few minutes.
a few minutes is short.
but it can be a very long time for a girl waiting for her best friends and desperately wanting them to go back and look for her.
you have no idea how she felt,
you will nvr noe.
cuz she thinks tat u dont treat her as ur best friend.
tat's how she felt deeply inside her heart,
as her best friends, her only best friends,
didnt not showed up,
she knew she's not important to them,
at all,
even as they said tat she is, million times from their mouth.
she waited for half an hour,
of course her so called best friends called her more than 10 times.
but the calls doesnt mean anything to her,
she'll just get iritated.
all she wants was her friends infront of her,
and told her tat they were sorry cuz they didnt realised tat she was all alone walking behind them!
so she followed the path where her best friends go,
but she saw no familiar faces,
and she got lost in the garden.
she managed to find her way out, within 'just' half an hour.
then she went home.
with her tears,
and no one knew.
she thinks its to late to apologize.
she's so impatient, uh?